Happy day everyone!
It's been quite a while since I've blogged. A lot has happenned since my last post. I haven't been doing well with healthy eating and exercising. Not well at all. I lost focus and unfortunately, a little faith. I was once so confident that God didn't want me to have an unhealthy body. I still believe that, but I lost my confidence in being able to attain a healthier me. I felt sad. What's worse, is that I cannot fully comprehend the root of my sadness. Is it just the lack of healthy progress in the past 9 months? Is it the lack of motivation over the same amount of time? Is it that I'm feeling my clothes getting tighter, but not seeing any weight gain? Is it worrying about my even more obese boyfriend? Is it my super hectic work schedule? Is it missing serving in my church? Ok, I just realized I probably just wrote all the reasons. I guess that's why some people believe writing is cathartic. You're able to write everything that is ailing you and that's the first step to healing. And these are things that have been ailing me. Well, what's ailing me is not being able to work through it. I've always been able to fix issues. But I'm so tired of trying to fix things. Lord, help me. I surrender! Help my unbelief! Please rid the things in my life that is hindering my progress and my relationship with You. Help guide me to be a woman that allows Your light shine through. Amen!
